Its seems such a long time since I wrote last, not that much has happened. I've been busy working, working, like always. Although I did learn to stuff sausages today, that was fun... and I was good at it after the first few hideous attempts... my supervisor even said they were gorgeous.. and then she came back to me later and commented on what a long way I've come. woot! encouragement is always appreciated. Right now it is 6pm on saturday (I know, no life... I've been trying to tell you) and I am sitting here in my p.j's thinking about things I should do and can get done while I have the house to myself. And let me tell you, it is a lovely thing indeed to have the house all to myself (everyone went camping) and I as much as I love camping, I am staying home and focusing on me a little bit. I haven't even turned on the music yet... usually that's the first thing I do. So far I plan on doing some yoga to see if that will help my back pain... and mostly to get all limbered up for Belly-dancing on Monday! The first class was last week I am very excited for the next one.. its a different crowd and not as many people as last time, so it should go well. hopefully I can get a couple more dances under my coin scarf ;) won't E (formerly known as DH) be proud? too bad he doesn't know what belly-dancing is because his dear wife can't seem to find the french translation anywhere... oh well he'll figure it out once he see's it. So far he's just a tad jealous that we couldn't be taking dances lessons together. That's on our list of things to do when he gets here, probably some sort of ball-room or classic dance. we'll have to see what is available when we are ready... knowing my luck he'll probably want to tango or something else that would equal me dying in the end, haha. Speaking of E. Paperwork should be on its way to me early this coming week and hopefully by friday (payday) I can mail it all off to immigration where it will be officially out of my hands (praise the Lord) I guess that means I have to finish the photo albums... another thing to do this weekend ;)
I think Wednesday was my worst day of this week. The work day was fine, good even. but as soon as I got home, I crashed, emotionally I'm guessing. Long-distance marriages are hazardous on the soul, E is NEVER joining the military! We cannot wait for all this waiting to be over, I'm starting to think that a person can only possess so much patience... and then what? I'm afraid to find out. And it had to be wednesday because it was our 8 month wedding anniversary, we are rapidly closing in on our longest time spent apart. I don't like it one bit. I hope the signal at the cyber cafe he phones me from is good today, my phone card is running low and that's it, that's all until friday.. there's no way I'm dipping into savings now, not unless I want to prolong my agony. no thanks. I'm trying to be wiser in the way I spend my money. wiser in the way I shop, wiser in the way I work, and eat and and overall in the way I live my life. hmm, this could take some time. I wish to be a gracious woman, someone who is not quick to judge or get angry, someone who finds a way to help when no way seems possible, a woman of peace. I don't want to be what I can see me becoming if I don't take some conscious steps to change how I live, in ways as simple as how I react to others, do I really know how to listen? I know a great fault of mine is that I take nearly everything personally, maybe if my life isn't focused on being materialistic and selfish then perhaps I can understand what message is being conveyed rather than thinking that I am always a failure. poor me. gah! I'm so done with that. its early new years resolution for me!
ok enough of this nonsense, I'm cranking up the tunes.
I think Wednesday was my worst day of this week. The work day was fine, good even. but as soon as I got home, I crashed, emotionally I'm guessing. Long-distance marriages are hazardous on the soul, E is NEVER joining the military! We cannot wait for all this waiting to be over, I'm starting to think that a person can only possess so much patience... and then what? I'm afraid to find out. And it had to be wednesday because it was our 8 month wedding anniversary, we are rapidly closing in on our longest time spent apart. I don't like it one bit. I hope the signal at the cyber cafe he phones me from is good today, my phone card is running low and that's it, that's all until friday.. there's no way I'm dipping into savings now, not unless I want to prolong my agony. no thanks. I'm trying to be wiser in the way I spend my money. wiser in the way I shop, wiser in the way I work, and eat and and overall in the way I live my life. hmm, this could take some time. I wish to be a gracious woman, someone who is not quick to judge or get angry, someone who finds a way to help when no way seems possible, a woman of peace. I don't want to be what I can see me becoming if I don't take some conscious steps to change how I live, in ways as simple as how I react to others, do I really know how to listen? I know a great fault of mine is that I take nearly everything personally, maybe if my life isn't focused on being materialistic and selfish then perhaps I can understand what message is being conveyed rather than thinking that I am always a failure. poor me. gah! I'm so done with that. its early new years resolution for me!
ok enough of this nonsense, I'm cranking up the tunes.
1 comment:
Oh my dear friend! You are great! I love that you posted an update :) I am really excited for you, and the fact that you are more "aware" of how you live day to day. Aware of how you're spending your money etc... It's a good thing!!! New habits take some time to become... habits, but once they are, it's all smooth sailing!! Hope the yoga went well! And the tango!! You crazy girl ;)
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